Breakup or is it?

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Fights suck.Fights with your boyfriend suck even more.
Sparks alternately flying around always threatening to set ablaze the surrounding.
Every relationship has a cycle.
Initially,you fall in love,you long for their touch ,your heart beats faster when you see them calling ,your in love with their idiocracy.
Yeah,you brag about how you were swept off your feet and he's your knight in shining armour.
Lets talk about a few years later.
It's natural in every relationship that the euphoria tone's down.
What makes it worse ? One of them is still at the initial stages[At the moment the scene in my life].
Now here's the funny part:
You can never find EVERLASTING LOVE.
If you want your love to last,you make it work.
Yeah,it takes time,energy and gets to you at times,but at the end of it..you realise that if you care enough to try to make it work..you care about the person more than ever,your in love.
Maybe those initial stages don't last,of course we miss it.But you get so much more out of just spending so many years together which makes the initial euphoria feel feel like nothing.The trust,the bond that you share and built together.
It's something nobody can EVER take away from you.Except yourselves.
Nobody falls in love by their own will or chance ,it all lays in the hands of fate.
Depending on whether your willing to care enough to make it work or let it slip right out of your hands.

Dream

I've always seen my life as a dream yet when we face a misfortune,why do we make it seem so catastrophic,so unfortunate!?
Sooner or later we're gonna wake up,right?
Sometimes,you try so hard to be good enough for someone but is it ever enough? Does it really matter in the long run? you
try so hard to please your parents,but fail.I guess that is part of our learning experience,are we supposed to know that?
so many questions...none of the answers are ever what you want to hear.
There are moments in your life when you completely zone out and lay on your bed staring at the ceiling above you and a mixture of emotions pace through your mind.Tired of it all,tired of pleasing everyone but yourself.
A picture keeps playing in your mind and you long for it to happen hoping you'll be impervious to danger of any sort.
A dream one would say.
A dream you swear will happen.
What if someone doesn't wake you up? will you be forced to wake up by yourself?

:)

I fell asleep last night feeling confident that I'd wake up and take my studies to a higher level.Of course I was just re-assuring myself,I'd hardly done 3 hours of studying the previous day.My boards were less than 2 months away and blogging is the only thing I can seem to do .I've heard people saying that the boards are not the end of the world and its all just a hype,But I say,until your write 'em and get your results,it still remains a big deal.
Morning came and through an open window bright light shone,birds chirping.Sound familiar,some sort of fairytale ? the only thing missing are the perky,enthusiastic characters!
Not my cup of tea though,
Crinkling my nose and grumbling to myself at the same time,I try to drag myself outta bed but fail miserably.
Slight irritation seeps in but I quickly grab my phone and check to see if I have any missed calls from my boyfriend.None.
Try to call him,phone - switched off.
The day didn't start off too well,yeah, exaggeration at it's highest.
But now you know,something this small totally gets me vexed.

So,i managed somehow to get myself successfully out of bed and a bit of studies done.Spoke to my boyfriend not for long but, good enough.
Funny when I think of it now.
I'm such a sourpuss at times,aren't we all!?
No!? Then its just me =)

Here a sudden random thought which popped up:
Ive always had a pillow by my side which I hug and fall asleep to (apart from reading a goodnight text from my love)... Im thinking of naming him(yes,him)..after all, he safeguards me from the boogie man.
I think Ill call him-Mr.Fudgewinkles.

Attitude.

Blogging,let me tell you is not for sore losers.
Yes,of course I do have friends.Sometimes,I rather blog(Irrelevant maybe,cause I started blogging about 2 days ago).I'm not sure if it's my passion yet,but I know that I don't have to persevere to triumph in this field.
Lets talk about boys,we love them at one moment ,we hate them at the next and before you know it,you love them again.
But then again,'hate' is a very harsh term.
I don't believe that anyone can 'Hate' another person. Maybe dislike,you probably even get vexed by them but 'Hate!?'
Nah.
And my boy!?
I could most definitely not hate him.
Yeah,your probably thinking that my attitude is probably different from yours . But your attitude,defines your altitude.
My intention is not to beat you down by lecturing,Believe me,I'm the last person who can give any advice to anyone.

Don't overdo it!

Momentarily,I'm getting a kick out of listening to Nickelback's 'never gonna be alone'.I've always had a hanker for Chad Kroeger,his voice,how he relates to reality and relationships.Impeccable.
Today,well it's not the first time..but let's take today..
I'm standing by myself,minding my own business at college and my classmate walks up to me,smiles very politely and says,"you've got facial hair." Startled of course and outraged by his arrogance,I politely smile back,run my fingers along the sides of his face and respond,"Aww,by the looks of it.. you've hardly got even a strand of hair on your face.Don't worry darling,your time will come no need to be jealous."
Sneering and thinking to myself, if I weren't so nice and didn't know the person that well,I would have undoubtedly ended up giving the person a black eye,a few broken teeth and let him/her (oblivious of their sex) try to muster up some dignity to walk away.
I mean it's hereditary,I don't seem to have a problem with it,I'm sorry, do you?! Oh whoops, I'm sorry I punched you then.
It is completely unnecessary to point out on a person's flaw.
Just a reminder to all of those people who go out of their way to be straight forward,sometimes... it's better to just..'Shut up!' ...